Thursday, September 10, 2009

trying to swim

On Tuesday, our family celebrated Oma deWit's life. It was good to be together, and there was laughter with the memories. My dad participated in the funeral service and likened Oma's life to various seeds... one seed being a sunflower seed, a plant that always turns to the sun. Oma always pointed to Christ (the Son), no matter the trial.

Another seed Dad used to describe Oma was the popcorn seed, a tough seed that softens (and sweetens) under heat and pressure. That made me think.

The reality of things in our home is hitting me harder these days. Maybe it's the lack of sleep, maybe it's the change of pace with Em, Soph, (and Ralph) in school. I took Rachel into a restaurant recently, and for the first time in a while, I was uncomfortable with the stares of the restaurant patrons.

One of the pastors at the funeral home read Isaiah 43 to our extended family as a means of comfort. I took to heart the words, "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you." Life sometimes feels like "the waters" and there comes a vulnerable feeling, like you suddenly can't touch the bottom while you are swimming.

But... when we hear those words from Isaiah, we are reminded life -come heat, pressure, fatigue, or curious stares- will not consume us... God is the consuming fire, and He will refine us, shape us, mold us, and guide us to the end of our days.



superstarmom said...

Sometimes it feels that as we're wading, we hit a deep hole in the river and we sink. I know that it's a river path that seems really lonely, but if you look closely, I'm there with you. Sometimes it's hard, it sucks and yet I can't imagine it any different. You're in our prayers. Remember that :)

Anonymous said...

I was going through a rough time and had a friend call me "out of the blue" with that scripture from Isaiah and said that the Lord had given it to her and to share she read it to me she emphasized the word WHEN very loudly and forcefully...............saying He did not say we wouldn't go through the fire or the waters but that He would be there with us in every situation.............

I have been reading your blog because Trudy told me about you........blessings and prayers and be encouraged..... God will take you by the hand and and strengthen you


Lisa said...

Lack of sleep can do such weird things to the emotions and brain! But so can life's daily journey. Especially when it's not the journey we'd chosen to go on. We will continue to pray for you all and I pray also that you can be gentle with yourself. We need to be as gracious to ourselves as we are to our children and others around us.

Thanks for sharing and keeping it real.